Kristin

I've been having incredibly vivid dreams lately, and I think they only last a short while because I stir from my sleep somewhat regularly for no reason.  I'm not sure what's going on at this point that would make my dreams more vivid and lively, my dreams are usually odd, but they're usually subdued, like the colors and sounds are muted.  Now a days the only way I know I was dreaming is due to some ridiculous event, like being a strange version of Cinderella, or Ryan owning and operating a large yacht.  My life is great right now, no school, Igor has moved into his apartment, I have a major, I have set goals for this summer, etc - etc... everything is going pleasantly.  I feel slightly anxious about Fall semester but everything seems to be running smoothly. *shrug*

These days I feel so strange on the rare occasions when I come on Livejournal. It might have something to do with the insane fencing party I managed to survive, having the flu, Igor getting in his car accident, trying to do better in school, making new friends with fencing, Igor coming for a wonderful surprise visit, and me here still trying to make my grades look passable and try to see if declaring a Biological Anthropology major will actually help me in my future of still not knowing what to do.


On the note of the Fencing Party, I was excited for it in advance. It was short notice, and the we had made friends we were telling us how crazy these parties get. We decided before hand NOT to get out of hand, but somewhere in the coarse of watching Men in Tights, playing "shoulders" and kings cup, and Absinthe shots, we were really in bad shape. Mainly, I remember Eliot talking my ear off (not in an annoying way), watching everyone dance, spilling a half a can of beer all over my leg and Jen's carpet, and playing drinking games. The next day I had the most dreadful spins and wanted to die.

The next three days I had horrible body ache and a high fever, and couldn't manage to stay away longer than 10 minutes, and health services told me that I had the flu.

Then, Igor got in a car accident. I was a worry wreck until he was discharged from the hospital, and then worried about the Vicondine.

Then Igor came to visit and it was wonderful. Apart from my mad dash to get my The Year of the French paper, the weekend was watching A Bit of Fry and Laurie, a little bit of pot, and enjoying peace. We had bubble tea and epic calzones. Or didn't have calzones. I was so out of it I told Liz and Declan that they could finish mine completely forgetting that Igor had told me to save it for the next day. The pit falls of ganja.

We've been smoking too much lately. I love smoking with the people we smoke with, but I think it's getting out of hand. Also, as an aside, I'm thinking of majoring in Biological Anthropology, because then I will have the prerequisites to enter a nursing program somewhere else, and I can bring up my GPA... hopefully. I really feel as if I've found something that really keeps me interested in doing work and I have to go get some food

 Sometimes I go on facebook and see pictures of my friends from the olden days and see that we have no pictures together.  It makes me feel sad.  I used to be close with these people, but that there's no evidence of it save for my and their memories.  I don't have the right to be sad though, I wake up every day in the presence of friends and potential for adventures hovering in the air.  My life is blessed.  This isn't a pity party... I guess what I mean to say is that all the social networking around us now usually makes people think of connecting with their friends all of the place, but sometimes it makes me feel lonely for certain people.

Seeing them have a great time without you really drives home the fact that friendships really don't last forever, and it's really important to just cherish what you have in the moment.

Oh, by the way, I went to Mormon Church this morning.

My computer broke and now my life sucks.  That's all.

Ok, not scared anymore, just really, really happy and calm

( Friday )( Saturday )
Sunday was rough.  We woke up first still drunk, then again much, much later. Igor made deliscious eggs again, and we went to walk around the beautiful lake.  Afterwards, we got in the car and drove around, and I bitched about the previous night., feeling bad about bringing everything up but feeling better all the same

Now it's Monday.  I've been sitting her for about and hour without breakfast waiting for Igor console Maggie about breaking up with her on-again off-again boyfriend Greg.   In less than two hours I'll be on a cramped, smelly bus again, going back to school, where I loose all my motivation to like....do work....and get a start on my life...  I think what it comes down to is that here in Chicago even with all the drama and Igor being an idiot every five seconds, he's still here and not in Binghamton, and I hate that we don't go to school closer.

Today on youtube there are tons of videos about people's reactions to Obama being elected President.  A video from Africa caught my special attention.  I never thought that this election got so much attention in other countries.  The video was 3 second response after response of men and women from Ghana and the Ivory Coast, saying how glad they were that Obama was now president, or "king of the world" (direct quote).
Most of the people interviewed expressed that they thought Obama was going to take care of them and Africa, which made put a pit in my stomache.  The president of the United States does have a huge amount of weight to toss around in global relations, and I'm sure most of what these people were saying was in the heat of celebration, but I still felt weird.  They said that this election proved to the world that segregation in the United States was over, and that upset me.  Reality and how the world precieves us both suck, but why am I as an American lumped in with all the racist idiots in my country?  And just because I didn't vote for Obama doesn't make me a racist, I just felt the McCain was more qualified for the job.  Well, that and McCain's tax plan doesn't present the chance of ruining my father's business, resulting in 20 people, most of them my family, not having a job - or anything to fall back on.  None of this is sour grapes though.  I feel this tiny bit of excitement to see what will really happen of the next few years.  I agree with Lia, if looking at it more pessimisticly, nothing really dramatic is going to happen, Obama hasn't and can't cause anything too terrible to happen.  I guess it's just frustrating to see people have these ideas about our presidents.  Are they ridiculous for being so enthusatic? Am I for not?

I've been avoiding livejournal for a long time even though a few things have happened to me worth writing about, so that years from now i can remember them.

I think the first was that, Rob and I had a very long night of talking and walking in circles around the Library basement.  We mostly complained and pontificated about relationships and why people are so complicated.
I have become friends with Karl, which has been very entertaining.  He's really a character.
I still feel like going to school here isn't helping me form a strong base for a career.
I miss people.
I download music illegally now because I can't afford to buy it.



I don't go to classes anymore, which really, really needs to stop.

So, Calculus.

Hindsight is really 20-20.  After having Pre-Calc with Dr. Lewinter I was really excited to continue studying math, and the next step was calc.  I guess if I had been smarter I would have looked into what calculus actually is.  I figured it would be much the of the same, basic triginometry and algebra, finding out what math is actually useful for, etc.  My teacher, Viji, is natually talented at math in general and calculus.  He's an intriging person, he played soccer and crickett while he was in school, and he's young enough so that everyone in the class can relate to him and probably find him entertaining some of the time on some level.

Being natually gifted in understanding math (he insinuates that he doesn't except us to put in emense amounts of effort into calc because he didn't) I guess it's hard for him to perhaps put himself in the mindset of a student who doesn't have that innate understanding of abstract mathematical ideas.

I've been reading my textbook trying to help me understand what the fuck a limit is and why the hell one would ever need to be able to find the derivitave there of, and I'm feeling a bit better.  I'm really not sure about taking any other classes in math after this though.  I'm really now just hoping that this class doesn't demolish my GPA.

sometimes I feel like such a Goddamned idiot.  Today in my polisci discussion, I voiced my opinion that, since we live in a world much different that the end of the 18th century, most of the laws we have protect us as a nation and aren't really in gross violation of the constitution, but that, also, since most of the population can read and does have access to the cadidates information and standings on how our country should be built, the electoral college may be outdated.

This other girl the in the class brought up a very good point, saying that the electoral college encourages the 2 party system with is blah blah blah, and I completely correct, but I myself COMPELETLY forgot about states like North and South Dakota.  With out the electoral college, these states would be totally screwed going up against heavily populated states.  Granted, there's a reason they're population is low, not a lot of people like wearing snow shoes and snow onezies 9 months out of the year and having more cows than people in their neighborhood....But, it makes sure that their majority vote is counted as much as possible equal (though not necessarily opposing equal) to states like New Fucking York.  They;re needs from Government aren't anything like ours, and they shouldn't be treated like us.  The things we need from government might decimate their local economy or anything else.

Maybe I should think next time I want to speak infront of the class so I don't look like a freakin retard.

perhaps growing up in and so close to new york city contributed to my self-centered view of how the country works.

I guess the big guy still likes me,i got B's in everything - and I think that's only possible through devine intervention.

Post Script:

I sent people this video on facebook, but no one has sent anything back.... I just thought it was funny, but now I wonder...did my action result in my loosing all my friends?  I hope not.

I figured out how to make lj icons!!! yey for wikihow :)

I think I'll get a hair cut when I get home this weekend.

I'm slightly upset.

I was reading fruits basket LAST NIGHT, and I go to read more on this website, and they've all been taken down!!!! Tokyo Pop caught them. Now I have to go to the library or actually torrent them... or something.

On the bright side, my wireless mouse is cute as a button and it's working. 

Also, my sister is getting confirmed tomorrow, so I had to clean the house (surprise surprise) for my aunt coming over. I really don't understand my parents sometimes.  They yell at us and call us lazy whenever we don't get things done efficiently, or in a short amount of time, or that something we've done it half assed, but I ask you, how are we supposed to know better?  The whole "do as I say and not as I do" thing doesn't work.  The reason this house is always dirty is because no one - especially my parents- ever cleans up after themselves.  We know that there'll be some huge effort at least 3 times a week in which we dust, scrub, and fluff everything, so why not wait till then? 

If people would take off their shoes before coming in, mop up what they spill right after spilling it, wash the pots they use, and put their god damn dirty dishes in the dishwasher instead of the sink, we wouldn't have this freakin problem - and by "we" I mean ME.

I think that was the first time I went on /b/ and felt like I needed to shower just to rid myself of nausea.

DUDE my cousin Meagan and my Bavarian cousin in law Sofia are having BABIES
EVERYBODY CELEBRATE!

So I've registered for classes for next semester.  I had no problems whatsoever.  I have a busy schedule just with 12 credits, but I decided to add on a polisci lecture with a discussion, just because I can always drop it.

Monday	Tuesday	Wednesday	Thursday	Friday
MicroEcon Lec 12:00 - 1:00	PoliSci Lec 10:05 -11:05	MicroEcon Lec 12:00 - 1:00	PoliSci Lec 10:05 -11:05	MicroEcon Lec 12:00 - 1:00
Russian 1:10 - 2:10	Russian 1:15 - 2:15	Russian 1:10 - 2:10	Russian 1:15 - 2:15	Russian 1:10 - 2:10
Calculus I 3:30 - 4:30		Calculus I 3:30 - 4:30	Calculus I 2:50 - 4:15	Calculus I 3:30 - 4:30
	PoliSci Dis 6:00 - 7:00	MicroEcon Dis 4:40 - 5:40

I'm listening to Crash Into Me and listening to Shari, Steph, Ari, and Andrew chat about vodka and cake baking.

I feel content, but I think that Dave Matthews has that effect on me, mainly, it restores my faith that summer is in deed coming and that life goes on, but also in a cycle.